I decided to join. I realize that some people probably think this is lame as hell. But quite frankly, I gotta do something. This will keep me quasi-accountable (online weigh-in?) and perhaps will offer me some ideas and motivation for portion control and exercise ideas. I know a lot about this stuff already, but apparently something is missing its mark.
The only good thing about this whole weight issue is that someone recently guessed my weight, and he was WAY below what I actually weigh. I'm okay with that! Not to mention I'm pretty obsessive about checking out what other people my weight actually look like, and if my camera isn't lying, I don't look like them.
It's kind of like I told my friend yesterday: I'm built like a tank, apparently. I'll never be a willowy, skinny girl, but I'd prefer to be able to wear a short skirt without constantly feeling like a lardass. I was able to do that back when the MBA program started, and if I could get back to that point, I'd be pretty darn happy. I guess my goal weight is pretty lofty; perhaps I should reconsider.
Anyway, so far, so good. I joined today (because I didn't get paid until today) but started yesterday, but have stayed OP (on points, in WW lingo) and haven't yet used any flex points. I think that's the only redeeming thing about this program for me - I guarantee it'll piss me off if I go over my points, so I just have to make sure I don't give up if that happens; just get back on and try again.
I KNOW my self-esteem (tied to my weight, I think) can improve, and I don't really think it will take that much different motivation than other things I've done recently (haven't smoked a single cigarette since November!!!!!!)
So I guess I'll keep updating on this as it goes...
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